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Monday, 06 April 2009

  • Maybe someday...

    I read the news today...

    After having read people's reactions to second, maybe third hand accounts of racism, it was a bit surprising to come across an article of a former bigot. http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090404/ap_on_re_us/one_man_s_apology

    A man from Carolina has come to terms with blacks in America and began apologizing for his attacks on people of color in his community when he was younger. Now in his 60's, the man is trying to come to terms with his past and prepare for the possibility of an afterlife. Is this a symbol of things to come, and if so, are others willing to meet these challenges to reflect the self?

Wednesday, 04 March 2009

Sunday, 01 March 2009

  • closure : Netherlander

    Around 2003, I was infatuated with a young lady, and she had let me into her life: she was abused, and had self-esteem issues. I had given her a significant amount of money to help her out with healthier foods.

    Well, time went on, and I lost track of her, and felt a small bit of guilt for not being able to "be there" for her, as far as her request to be romantically involved (physical). She is quite gorgeous, but there was something about her that seemed "off" to me.

    Recently, she had found me and friended me on Hi5, and I noticed she had "married" under her relationship status. For most guys, this is bad news, but this made me feel happy. Her pictures of her were with her husband appear to be quite happy. She young lady appears to have married a decent-looking, clean-cut, young man from the Netherlands.

    I think I felt genuine concern for her, without any preoccupation with romantic feelings toward the young lady. (Although there is a part of me that still wonders... I think it has more to do with me being kind of lonely.)

Sunday, 22 February 2009

  • for $25

    There are people who are out there, who will do stuff to you in alleys for $25: whether they negotiate a quid pro quo type deal, or just request the cash in exchange for not harming you, for the cost of nice dinner. Many people consider these people "gutter trash" because of the desperation and somewhat soullessness of what you would stoop to for a small amount of cash.

    Yesterday, I was to oversee a vid'ya game tournament featuring Madden '09. For about a month, a couple of individuals had promised to set it up. They had claimed to have signed up 30 or more people, and wanted to be involved in all the functional aspects. I went in at 11:00am to set up for the tourney to start at 1pm. While waiting, two or three pre-teens wandered in and out asking if there was going to be a tournament. I was somewhat in the dark, other than who had originally been in charge. I had been informed by one of the teens that someone else had taken over the program, and the teen called that individual. The teen seemed annoyed and walked out, but what I could gather, the person he was calling was not answering.

    At about noon, we were stuggling to try and get 8 people to appear, and settled for 6. I had set up the tourney in the meeting room with a PS2 and a video projector. I had collected the money as advertised to make up the prize money. And spent a lot of time trying to set up a tourney bracket that would accomodate sets of 3 instead of 2 or 4. (very hard) One older guy and his kids were there for the tourney, and the older guy entered, too. Not thinking, I thought it would be ok, because grown ups typically know that kids are usually better than them in video games. (if you do not know that, then you may have developemental issues.)

    So against my better judgement, I let the tourney go foward. There was an arguement about whether or not someone could use the 07 packers, people were talking smack while playing, and then to top the whole experience off, after losing the tourney, the old guy caps off about how he wishes he was the age of the kid that beat him in football, so he could "kick your fucking ass". When I told the guy he was out of line, he told me it's "cuz their color" and "that's how they are". He immediately left, making it an easy day for me not having to fill out an incident report. (although maybe I should, today at work)

    For $25 prize money, he is going to threaten someone half his age, and finish it off by adding a racist comment.
    ...and in front of his kids, too. I'd give him the money if I thought it would make him a better person, but I think he would have done that anyway, even if the prize was who gets to get hung from a wall and punch in the groin.

    What kind of disappointed me was that a staff member from the Children's department justified the old guy's behavior by saying, "well that's Madden. If you play someone and beat them, it's like they stole something from you". The staff member was a young black man in his early 20's.

Tuesday, 03 February 2009

  • Loveliness of Loving with Love

    Valentine's Day is coming up. Many people blame Hallmark for romantic holiday's but it is mostly from the English-inspired Victorians: People in a time where living was a nice balance of work, play, and study. Though I am not in love, do not have anyone I am interested in, and probably don't have anyone interested in me. I would like to promote the classic art of courtship and romantic acts.

    Love letters: though we have e-mail, they tend not to carry the fascinating human quality of paper, with sketches and scratch and sniff stickers that can elaborate an amorous feeling a loved one can imagine knowing the words were scrawled out in the style of your hand.

    Mix Tape/CD: a collection of music that expresses (usually in someone else's words and sound) an ambiance of what it is to be inside your head with all the fluffy, bubbly, Poka-Poka, Hua-Hua (Japanese for "comfy-comfy, warm-warm") feelings that come together when you listen to those same songs.

    Treats: While many opt for quick and easy cookies, candy, or cupcakes, a more intelligent and personal signature would be to make a food that your loved one enjoys, or food that makes you think of them. If cooking skill is just too much for you, you can go to a store or restaurant that best depicts your emotion in taste and texture, as well as astheticly.

    Movies: are always an easy delight during Valentine's day. Be sure to take your loved one to a movie that is similar to how you envision you and your loved one's story.

    In the end, Valentine's day is a good excuse to do something out of the ordinary to show someone how special they are to you. The more extraordinary your gift or event, the more your loved-one will know how special they are, and may strengthen the bonds between you, emotionally.

    I'm deep, when I want to be!

jhim43

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